Lately I feel blank.
Not sure what this is. Some would probably say depression or maybe boredom. I had all this excitement built up in my head around this time and what it would look like once I graduate and get mylife back but now I guess I'm sitting here wondering what exactly IS my life now?
Maybe it will take time to get caught up with finances and then I will feel a little more freedom to do the things I want to do like take kickboxing and yoga and maybe buy some new things for the house. I guess all those things will help me feel like my life is a bit more purposeful than just sitting here wondering what the fuck I'm supposed to do next.
I don't like this apathy though, I know life is much more than this blank feeling. I know there is so much love and happiness and adventure out there waiting for me if I could just find a way to open up to it. Until then, I'll continue to just try everyday to get out of this funk, I will keep thinking of how I know life can be, I will ask the Universe to help me see things in a different perspective.
I may not be asking pretty soon I may be begging.